Growing Things

Sometimes I feel like everything I grow just ends up dying

leaving back a steady stream of almost thoughts and maybe dreams

I promise I’m not lying

but If I could water every seed

of the promises you’ve given me

I could grow a garden tall and green

sometimes I feel like everywhere I go I end up leaving

leaving back a windowsill of starter dreams and starter thrills

that finally stopped breathing

but If I could water every seed

of the promises you’ve given me

I could grow a garden tall and green

and I thank the gardner for always working harder

than I ever cared to work

and I thank the flowers for showing me that I could bloom

while giving all my hurt to the dirt

and I thank the window sill that never has and never will desert me

when I don’t feel much like growing tall at all

but If I could water every seed

of the promises you’ve given me

I could grow a garden

but if I could honor what you say

when you told me there would come a day

when all lifeless things will drift away


Each Tiny thing

my father built my house a porch

he built it with his hands so strong

and though my mother said we’d never see the day

when it was through, oh how he loved to prove her wrong

and as we walked across the wood that held our weight

he held my hand so I would know that I was safe

and he said

each tiny thing I have laid

next to each tiny thing together makes

a bigger thing that we can hold

and you can have it for your own

at least for awhile

so I go dancing with my words

sometimes it’s all that I can do

cause there are things that are too big to comprehend

so I’ll keep rhythm with the ones I know are true

and as I measure every syllable and sound

I’m often left in wonder at the beauty I have found

in each tiny thing that I say

and each tiny thing that I wish that I’d erased

and each tiny thing that I scribble on the page

in the hopes that I’ll create a tiny thing

at least for a while

and I went walking with my Lord

through woods so thick I scarce could see

and though i’ll never know for sure I swore he said

don’t worry bout your eyes as long as they’re on me

and as he led me to the field where all things go

I felt the life break through the death within my soul

as he said each tiny thing I have made

and each tiny thing I will lay to rest

and each tiny thing I will love the best

and you will know it when you hold each tiny thing to your breast

at least for awhile

and each tiny thing that I am

and each tiny thing that I’ll never understand

and each tiny thing that I cradle in my hand

sings a song of bigger things in bigger lands


Some time(s)

I’m not asking you to break

any rules you might have made

i’m just asking you to hold

me in your arms

I have heard a wise man say

love will come to those who wait

well i’ve been waitin’ since I woke

and I ain’t found you

some time flies

but sometimes it does fly solo

and I get so low

sometimes

I have always had a way

of burying what I should say

like how i’d marry you today

if you would have me

some time flies

but sometimes it does fly solo

and I get so low

sometimes

cause there has never been a day

where i’ve not wished for time to wait

for me to take all my mistakes

and turn them around

some time, it flies

but sometimes it does fly solo

and I get so low

sometimes

and some time, it hurts

and sometimes it just ain’t worth it

but I think you’re worth it

sometimes


I See A Door

I see a door

but i’d like to sit inside these walls for just an hour more

cause my eyes have seen the future and I don’t like what’s in store

Oh I see a door, oh I see a door

I hear a war

but i’d like to sit inside these walls for just an hour more

cause I can hear the bloodcries and I think I dropped my sword

I hear a war, oh I hear a war

I see a door

but i’d like to sit inside these walls for just an hour more

cause I know the things that save me just might hurt a little more

I see a door, oh I see a door

and in that door, there’s a tree

and it’s calling out to me

on to bigger things

on to wider things

in that expanse, there’s a man

reaching out with broken hands

asking me to dance

but i’ve forgotten how to dance

but we’re dancing through the door

and I don’t know how I got here but I know that I want more

cause my heart has heard the music and I know who wrote the score

Oh I see a door, oh I see a door

Oh I see a door


If You Can

would you give me the answers i’ve been seeking

been seeking them for hours, hours, hours

would you lead me across this dead horizon

we could call it ours, ours, ours

cause life is a blink of an eye

but right now it’s a car

that i don’t wanna drive

but you, you are a lamb

and i just want you to hold me in your hands

if you can

would you leave me

if i strayed too far from

the places that i came from

would you leave me

would you love me

if virtues weren’t a friend to

the people that i gave my hopes to

would you

cause life is a blink of an eye

but right now it’s a car

that i don’t wanna drive

but you, you are a lamb

and i just want you to hold me in your hands

if you can


Arise Child

arise child and hear this song

four-poster runs ten feet long

hope dances on sunlight’s rays

projected on window panes

and you will see that this is not all for nothing

as your eyes begin to change

and embrace all that i’ve made

let grace creep in corners of your smile

i’ll promise peace but it might take a while

and you will see that this is not all for nothing

arise child and hear this song


Everybody Leaves

the thing that tears us from the ones we love

has different ways of showing up

and rendering us unconcious

whether it was a fancy job

or just a lack of love

between the ones you said

you always looked up to the most

well i was never seein faces

just the backs of heads going to different places

different places

was this the marriage of our youthful days

before we all went separate ways

all went separate ways

sometimes i wonder was it worth the pain

or should i have come to be my age

by making friends with my reflections in the rain

cause i was never seein faces

just the backs of heads going to different places

different places

and you were always saying sorry

as a blurry car drove off with everybody

“everybody leaves”

that’s what they say

“but everybody breathes a brand new day”

but i found that it was harder than i thought

harder than i thought

When the Sandstorm Came

When the sandstorm came

it was all i could do not to cry

at the thought of your shattered wings

that your maker had fashioned

with all of the care in the world

when the sandstorm came

you were right in the middle

caught in the middle

and i couldnt reach you if i had tried

when the sandstorm came

i was right there beside you

and as much as i tried to

forget what you said

it rang like a melody

burrowing into me

ohh

and you and your maker

gripping you tightly

singing you melodies

whispering softly

you are fearfully and wonderfully made

you are fearfully and wonderfully made

when the sandstorm came

it was all i could do not to cry

at the thought of your shattered wings

that your maker had fashioned

with all of the care in the world


Loving You is killing me

loving you is killing me

it’s eating all the hope my fragile heart

had for waking up

tomorrow i’ll go to the store

and buy the strongest remedy they have to offer

cause i am just a little tired

of feeling like i do

it seems the more i think of moving on

the more i think of you

because your name has been written on the stars

which consequently mark the sky i see at night

which makes it hard to ignore you

and the ache that comes with wanting

loving you is causing me to

slowly regress into falling out of touch with reality

cant you see that maybe it would be the best

for both of us if you would leave

cause i am just a little tired

of feeling like i do

it seems the more i think of moving on

the more i think of you

because your name has been written on the stars

which consequently mark the sky i see at night

which makes it hard to ignore you

and the ache that comes with wanting

and the ache that comes with wanting

is the reason i’ve been running away

for all these years

and the mind that you’ve been taunting

and the feelings you’ve been haunting

are the cause of all these tears

all these tears

cause i am just a little tired

of feeling like i do

it seems the more i think of moving on

the more i think of you

because your name has been written on the stars

which consequently mark the sky i see at night

which makes it hard to ignore you

and the ache that comes with wanting

oh the ache that comes from wanting you


I will love each one

i saw the face of hunger all around

i saw the face of children sleeping on the ground

i saw the face of murder at my door

i saw the face of things i can’t ignore

and i will love each one

i will love each one

i will love each one

i saw the face of violence and of grief

i saw it cowering in disbelief

i saw the empty faces of the blind

i heard a million people asking why

and i will love each one

i will love each one

i will love each one

i saw the face of daughters and of sons

i heard the hopeless masses bellow their lungs

i saw a face through teardrops trying to see

i recognized that it belonged to me

and i will love each one

i will love each one

i will love each one